The little girl sits on the bench, and worries about acceptance. She is the new girl yet again, and feels the butterflies creeping up in her stomach. She looks around, and gathers up the courage to approach others. Inside she is shaken, the confidence isn’t there. But to the outside world – they see her as direct, and confident.
She has learnt how to camouflage, how to adjust to “fit” to others expectations. This behaviour becomes her norm. The voice within tells her she isn’t good enough, her hair is too curly, and she doesn’t look right…. She tries so hard to adjust to their likes, their wants, so she can be accepted.
Acceptance that is all she wants. She just wants to be accepted by her peers, for them to like her, not to exclude her. She wishes she could be that girl in the hall that everyone loves….
She wants to be someone else……
As I look back on my life I see this girl looking right back at me. I feel sadness for her.
Why couldn’t she see through herself through her parents eyes?
Why didn’t she know that He accepted her?
I don’t know the “why”. But I do know He works everything for good.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28 NIV)
He was always there, watching, waiting and knew that one day I would see.
He loved me then; He wanted so much for me to see through His eyes.
He brought people into my life to redirect my thoughts, He helped me when I felt like I was drowning, and He has shown me a different way.
I am thankful for the experiences; they have helped me to understand. The experiences have given me compassion when it is needed; they have helped me lead others out of the trap of believing what the enemy comes to sell us – LIES.
It is easy to fall into the trap and believe the lies, as Satan is very convincing. He whispers words such as:
You messed up again. You can’t do this, you should give up. They don’t like you; you should conform to what they want. This hill is too big to climb, I can’t do it.
But God does not want this, He wants us to live His word and hear His voice. His words are TRUTH, REAL, TANGIBLE:
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. (Psalm 139:14 NIV)
Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free. (John 8:32 NIV)
The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it. (John 1:5 NIV)
You are beautiful, you are uniquely made.
There is only one of you in this world, and you are here to fulfill a purpose.
I know this now, it has taken me a good portion of my life to see myself through the eyes of a parent. I see and now will transfer this perspective to anyone I know that seems to exhibit fear, insecurity and lack of confidence.
They will see through their Father’s eyes.
Today, take a moment and ask yourself, what do you see when you look in the mirror? Do you see that you are wonderfully made? Don’t believe the lies and remember the TRUTH. Let the voice within speak the truth. How are you going to spend the time you have in this life? In the light, or in darkness? I chose the light.
May you be blessed my friend and thank-you for popping by, Ness
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