This morning as I was meditating on some Scripture, I was thinking about the times when I feel like God is far away. I used to think that the sin which separates us from God was only moral failings but what I am finding is that my thought life can cause a beak in fellowship, not because He has moved or Has withdrawn from me but because I am not focusing my mind on Him.
For instances the past few weeks I have been struggling with various discouragement so about rather minor things like my children’s petty squabbles, a dirty house and my inability to complete my to-do list in the time I had allotted for it.
This discouragement easily turns into guilt as I feel ‘guilty’ for yelling at the kids for their fighting, for not being a better housekeeper, and for not doing better with my time management.
This discouragement and guilt is not God’s will for me.
What He desires is that I invite Him to be part of the messiness of everyday life. He wants to carry this burden for me. He desires to be present. But when I take the burden on myself it is like I push Him aside, and I am the one walking away from the peace and strength He has to offer I that very moment.